SPRING ROMANTICISM

I am so much waiting for spring to arrive. For the first time in almost 10 years I have spent the whole winter in Sweden. It has been a total challenge. Anyone who is slightly sensitive to darkness will suffer badly. Me, personally, I have passed the sensitive stage, and travelled far beyond that.

 I am now in a serious state of addiction. "Hello, my name is Meja, and I am a light addict." and the choir answers  "Welcome Meja" I now feel safe. I have landed on the right side of the year. I did make it passed the cold turkey months of december and january and I am now approaching end of march with great hope for mankind.

 This gives me a deep respect for the Nordic people. I suddenly understand why we don´t greet each-other on our daily walks....as I complained about before, and why we don´t socialize and go out and hug each other. We are fully occupied with trying to survive the day. What we do is bury our selves in our jobs to try to forget that we are suffering. 

So, there we go. Next meeting. "Hello , My name is Meja and I am a workaholic" And the choir answers "get a f-ckin grip of yourself" Hrm...not really the answer I suspected, but yeah....ain´t it true??? What are we focusing on in life? what really matters? I can tell you this much. My work has saved my life this winter. There is no doubt. I have been totally focused on keeping my head above water, sucking in the outer light I could find. .... figuratively speaking.....

Totally focusing on catching that little ray of sunshine that came by once in november 24th and once more, but even more subtle, was the ray of january 10.  

I have soon gone thru the twelve steps of the darkness resisting and the light catching program and soon I will feel born again as the trees turn green, flowers will bloom and the birds will once again sing their beautiful tunes. Spring romanticism?? Hell yeah!!!!